AGAIN...
why does my mood
KEEP RE HAPPEN RE HAPPEN AND RE HAPPEN
shitz..my self...
I'm TOO SENSITIVE...
seriously....
I hate my attitude...
TOO SENSITIVE.......
When can i type in Chinese?!
I hope can post out through Chinese Word...

TOO SENSITIVE is not good about it!
Super Complicated...
If...
A people u should not to take attention...
will u still keep continue and continue to...
Know the person action??...
every action the person do...
than...own will think more about it...
I'm the person who keep thinking NOW!!
I hate myself...
What for so sensitive..
Maybe they JUST FRIEND...
Maybe just change the name...
Maybe still miss about......
Maybe can't forget.......
Maybe.........................................
What for a person help another people so much...
with many unknown reason...LIE...
Complicated....just hope scold myself until I'm wake from it!
Am i stupid?..
yes..i am...
Am i too sensitive?..
seriously...is totally TOO SENSITIVE...
I know my problem...
But dunno how to change my shitz attitude.....
True..last time when primary school...
my friend said me that...
'Be ur man sure must 100% din even see or talk to a girl...'
'U're so care all about this...'(Yes,I'm)
BUT NOW....
hard to find...
or even all die already...
In this Century...
Which guy will not look at girl...
Which guy will not talk to girl...
Which person can just treat u,the only as the really ONLY PERSON...
So...
Conclusion is...
I....
Jesmay Howe..
I think...
I'm going on my whole life with
ALONE........
happy or sad about it?..
Dunno...

Many song...
their word...their song meaning...
Full of meaning...
Just like..
telling me that...
'let go of ur hand....u're not in this world...'
'Said bye bye....dun cry...back to our other planet....'
Am i think too much...
but...at the moment i'm moody or what...
those song that i simply open than play..
SURE...
is telling me something...
ask me to...
'LET GO.................'

I should do that...
I can't be silent and just keep
receive receive and receive those....
un useful memory for me...
Just hurt myself..make me pain..
that's all...
Other people...
Even his closer family...
also support he about that...
So...other 'out side' people...
was TIDAK LAYAK to objection about that...
What for i keep continuing to be the people who TIDAK LAYAK?

LEt go Let go and Let go please...
My dear mind.....
Just delete the memory please...
My dear leg.....
Please change the direction that last time always i follow and make me hurt b4..
My dear eye....
Look at another handsome please...this world have many..what for just waiting for a zero!
My dear hand..
Dun hope that will come a warm hand and care u....just try make urself...warm....
My dear........
If the ans is Yes...Just tell me loudly....
If is No....Just leave me alone...
Why u like to see people in HURT?...

喜欢一个人，不一定要拥有她，只希望她幸福快乐~~虽然拥有不到她，
我都会祝她天天都幸福快乐...心情你做到吗？Yes i Do....
我的心情。就像天上的云下着毛毛雨，一滴一滴的流眼泪，真的好累，眼睛。。。对不起辛苦你了。。
心情,会不会停下雨呢？？。。你是我的太阳，如果没你。。心情就每天都下雨。。。Mo0dy
By Gor...same...really...
Receive CB msg few second...
He said..
ask me NO NEED TO UPDATE BLOG..
WASTE TIME...
NO PEOPLE WILL READ MY BLOG...
No need o do this lame action he said...
I think...
Is right.....
For what?...waste time...
BUT..
I JUST NEED SOMEWHERE ELSE TO SAID OUT MY PROBLEM
I'm lonely...
No one i can tell they my problem NOW....
super hard..this kind of life....
Dunno..it will until when...