Eehhhkkmm...

Ms J..
Unlike it..
Please..'take away'..

Why re-happen again?
Why like that...
I hope many ppl join n eat together too...not only just with u
Why be with me so shame for u?..
I dun hope to recover my feeling now..
Yea..I'm angry...
Very angry...Why...
When in the moment i dun wan alone..
U GO FAR AWAY FROM ME...
Why...
at the moment of i truly need someone accompany..
That person sure not u?!..
I hope on that time...the person share anything is u..
But...
It doesn't happen before until now...
Fine....
U HAVE UR OWN LIFE..
i nothing to said about it...u have ur frd...
So...just leave me.....
and when i ask u...
sure u'll said...
'u have ur frd mah........neh..jt...tb...gs.......'
ALWAYS...u SAID LIKE THIS...
what can i said?...
Something else make me dun wan to talk to u..
Maybe this is my CHILDREN THINKING...whatever...sry
D''''''''''' again.....
Normal for me.....
Ur action will slowly change me step by step..
and maybe one day u will notice at me
by 'why/how can she change until like this?'
I dunno...
I think i am changing to be more cool...
More selfish..More evil...
More dissapear suddenly without telling u anything.....
U hope this happen?...i thnk nothing for u...
I'm there u normal..I'm not there u also STILL NORMAL..
nothing has change...
I dun hope to change until that...
But how?
Nobody care about me....
I'm loser...I'm ugly....no one need me...
So....who care how i change?...
So..i just continue being evil...
Continue eat more be super fat....thn die=)

Make me D..
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Yao Hao invite me to his hse eat..
but feel like...Yen go better...i....dunno how to said...
Than...half way..saw gor ao weng them...
i ask them weader..
How back or wad...they go to eat...
thn bac...but gor stay in sch FOR SOMEONE...
So..i ntg to said...
Unlucky....when i turn bac my bus was gone..Damn..
So..sit at there...talking wif classmate...
call mummy....than...saw gs...
He said 3.00pm only he go in to sch...
great...can accompany wait mummy until 2.00pm..
Even JiaHuey also busy about her frd thing...haiixx......
Can't accompany me...
At last...many frd go...stay...go...stay...
And i sitting at there n beside is gs....
He also dunno wad to do same as me.....
We sit at there wait his uncle take his hp here..
Saw LaLa people....hate smoke smell!
Gs said they're so.....'geli'........by texting in my hp msg for me..

Finally...his uncle reach at 1.30pm...=.=
half more hour i wanna bac edi...
Reach McD saw Gor again....
We call 2 Mc-Flurry Choc Conneto...rm10=.=
He gonna belanja me nxt week.....
Find a place at up stairs chat...*reminded me something n someone
Why he can accompany me..u can't?..rushing bac...do nothing?..
Fine....I dunwan later argue about this....just very D...
Gs do his own note...He is preparing to his pmr..
But...what i do?...thinking of those thing...I'm such a loser...
Than...i just enjoy my Ice-cream..looking around...
Damn...why all group around me is.........
what i hope..i can do like this with someone....

Table 1-a group with few person..doing revision,teaching each other..
(dunwan to see edi..later i D coz of can't like that with someone)

Table 2-a gang of boy..one is the basketball player in Pandan Indah sch..
they're very geng.....eatting and haveing fun...playing with their frd..
(again...i hope i can like this so much too...Damn..)

Table 3-few frd and also their parents eat together..chat...know each other...
(I hope my mum know someone mum too...coz..really wan to thanks to someone mum)

........Damn.............
Dunwan To See anymore...
ALL IS WHAT I WISH..
come out in true life...but..not happen on me..
I just b the 'side people'...i hate this feel...haixx.....
Why Why Why....
I'm a LOSER...

Take some pic of Gs hp..

(few more..upload when i can)


Still in not really good mood...
Fine..just treat it nothing...
Way walk to school..
Saw my Pandan Indah WG kaki gor..* the name I call he =)
Cause now day heard something about this gor..
He msg me few day before...Only i know..
he had stop studying...wad...so waste...
But..he wan to stop it..hope he'll back sch soon..
And...i heard from senior...my this gor had colour his hair...
Finally..i saw he today....
really accidently...I dun even know wil meet he at here..
Quiet ok......at least not as whole head colour or what...
we chat under sun in front SJK sch for few minute..=.=
He find his gf take bday..only i know today was his bday...
~HAPPY BDAY GOR~

Way to bac sch saw Mr R n suetmun them~
Back to school...
wait at bus stop ALONE too...
Saw my form2 de 'ji mui'(male)..
Cause last time they so naughty...now more mature..
Meet TikSang..YanTong them.....
Saw SY Gor..accidently too=.='
I really dunno they not yet bac...
Chat with he...he said wanna bac by my car=.=
He said he was so tired...so just fetch he bac home..
thanks mummy=)

*sry if i said anything hard to hear..I dun hope argue..sorry..

Ms J like...=)

Something nice to share..
stay tuned after 9.30pm..
Love my frd~
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A Video..
Edited by John(my basketball idol)..
Soo TOUcHED...
Nice video...
Sweet song.....
~Like~
'Liston to our story..'
'This may be our last chance..'
'Do u still remember our promise..'
'Even though i'm just a dream,but i'll always be there for you...'
1st time see final fantasy..
Heard many time before...dunno what is it..
Now...John edit this..add in track...
Feel nice...and sure have some fighting or what....
But..i think the theme is not about their fight or what...
Not much to said...Just share it at here..
Enjoy my friend...1st time i knew this kind of video~

Horrible..

(Noisy me many things to said~)
Just came back from sch just now..
Gor's mum ask mw MUST be careful..
when morning i waiting bus or whatever..
DUN ALONE..i hope too..

Gor's mum said..
In this morning...
True..
This morning..
happen a big cases near by my hse..
A 15+ age GIRL...
CHinese....wearing sch uniform..
HAD BEEN PULLED BY TWO MALAY IN A CAR...
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A SCARY cases are this..
and..near by my house.....
The girl keep scream and scream..
ppl saw..but when the time they walk down..
wanna help....the car was gone...
day was still dark...nobody saw the car no...
Just know 2 MALAY GUY..
SUck!!!!!!!!..
why did they do like that?!!..
Pls take this seriously guy....
MUST ALWAYS BE CAREFUL...
This news..maybe on tonight news paper or tomorrow paper...
OMG...until now still din find the girl...
Where are u?...
Hope u'll be alright..
I'll pray for u....
Please be ok...
u're almost same age as me...
Still have a long way to go...
Please...be ok....God save the girl please...
All of u too...
RMB TO BE CAREFUL....

Trial - I.N.G.....

I'm sit in front of comp..
thinking a title for my post-.-''
Cause..have many thing to share..
1-my sick..and the scary thelesimia..
2-my exam..OMG>.< 3-changes of me =)

Have 3 topic wanna post-.-''
Hmm..Maybe just skip some..
or dun upload pic...too muchhii..
As my sick>.<..
Sunday whole day stomach pain..fever incresing..blablabla..
keep lending down and sleep..and eat medicine...
I kinda hate the smell and the taste of MEDICINE..
I dun wan sick anymore..painfull>.<
And..i get the report...2ND time blood test...
Huhhh...my blood...

Trial ing... and i'm sicking..paining..and fainting-.-''
Seriously.....feel wanna vomit or faiting when exam..
gosh....luckily..i had prepare own small box of mentos...
So....that day after heard KH's mum said that...
I must always take some sweet with me...
than...since that day..i will rmb to bring sweet...
Thanks aunty =)...and i love sweet =P

My exam>.<...
1st day Bm & Pm...quiet normal for me..hehe..
2nd day Bi & Sc...Bi still ok...Sc...my class die deep deep-.-''
and i still rmb that..when exam-ing..
Mr Azlan(a Q teacher too..hahaxx...he hutang me a bday present and a meal..XD) enter my class...
Than..all of us..'yes..!'... and ask teacher how...ask here ask thr..
and his ans is...SAYA TAK TAU...lmao...XD...funny expression he have..
whole class chatting and asking when exam still goin on...
Mayang class Yeng!!^.^

A stupid me ans a stupid question on sc exam...
Is about form3 chapter4..i think every one know....
-.-''...The question ask as..
.......the process when female and male......is call......(question ask kind of this)
A.Fertilisation
B.Implantation
I choose B....than..after exam..Foo saw my paper...she laugh at me..
said how can i so funny...(i still dunno i'm wrong)...She said...the process call...
FERTILISATION...IMPLANTATION is for plant..Lollsss...Lmao...
really......=='..dunnoo how to said......But is true cause i din read book and..
LESS focus in chapter4...I'm a good student =)
Stupid me until myself also....=.='''

change..change..change...change??!//
Maybe..
ING....(still doing)
Just feel like...
maybe my sick and focus in exam..
also..wishes that from love love frd touches me deep deep..
Than..
Myself.begin.a.new.life.secretly.until.myself.dunno.too.but i dun wish without u
hhaaaxx...lie smily face?
Today only i notice...
Feeling was not much more hurt or sad..maybe just awhile..or just the moment when u show me this feeling
Maybe i'm really quit from there..would u follow me?i hope it
Feeling was not much care or think about it..maybe too hurt or pain..i'm scare
Maybe more things need me too=)
So...slowly.....I try my best...would u really wan to let me go?
Than..maybe after this..
Jesmay return be normal people or what again...*i not really hope this happen when i'm in front of u
I will miss those emo or sad also hurt time forever...i miss u
As my memory..cause..1st time...i become so chi xin =Xsecretly
For sure...i will very very miss..i promises bcz i have like u so much b4
because...I had...(past tense i think)hope it not=*(
I had so emo so hurt or sad moment...cause of something..Sry..i like u

T.S.O.P .E.H.T .E.D.I.S.N.I T.E.R.C.E.S
~T.I T.E.G U E.P.O.H~
fIND OUT~

Trial coming...

(at 1st wanna put his pic..after thinking..i think better dun..=)
Thanks for Mr. R's wishes...
Touched..
How can u so support me by my side...
thanks a lot~

For.. my friend..
(is true on what they said)..
Sorry.. Is just what can i said..
I know.. a word of SORRY..
can't even overcome anything..
But.. the kind of..
complicated unknown feeling..
was still in my heart..
I'M A L.O.S.E.R....
Loser who..
can't said the true..
dun dare to face it..
hurt people badly...
A piece of shit..hate myself..

Told u some of it..
Luckily...my mood was not..
totally bad or change on that time..
If not..
I'M DIEING IN MY TRIAL..

But..
now..mood was..
on a 'danger line'..
But..i think will be alright..

I had many thing to tell u..
But dunno how to said..
And u also..
Seems like keep...
run away or change topic
PURPOSELY from me...
What Can I Do?...
But is trial now..
PMR soon..
I hope between these few month..
The problem...between us..
Dun increase........
Hope just maybe disappear the problem..
or suddenly doiinnkkk...
all problem solve or fall into a river..
Lols...
How stupid of my mind thinking...
All the Best..

For all my friend who same age with me..
or Pmr year too...makkss..hehe..
add oil together....^.^
Pray for me~

Me leg wear..Lols..

While every form3 student..
was add oil-ing on their coming trial..
I'm doing a lame action>.<
Dunno..why..just feel wanna share something..
but i promises i will do my best^.^
Thanks for support and please support me...heheee...

Here was my LAME ACTION..
Taking photo of SOME OF MY SHOES..
Haha..Dun hit me>.<
Now..
Here is my Sport-shoes




This was draw by me last time..
Lols..but dun dare to wearXD
See from Left side

See from right side

When combine...other side draw by my aunt..XD


Other Kind of my shoes...

(I like to wear this when go shopXD)


(Summer shoesXD)


(Wear once be..Lols..)

Lady shoes..XD
Like it without reason..-.-
First time.....



Second time...




'Boot'...whatever..cause dunno how to spell-.-
From China fly to M'sia..XD




MOST like...
OMG~
Just bought not more than24hours..
Shining shining...and gold in colour..
makss makkss....dunno why 1st saw..
than so like it..turn back take a look..
than..it becomes mine =)




Still have...But
lazy to upload...
*IS JUST FOR SHARING..dun misunderstood..
I Love my mum and dad..
They love me so much..
what shoes..bag..shirt or what else..
Or maybe a Jamuan..or Prom whatever...
Whatever I wan...if they can..sure they will buy for me..
Muackkkss...Thanks..^@^
Hmm..maybe nxt time bag..
wakakaka....really very very lame person i am..
now only i know..-.-''
Hahxx...But..better than few day b4..
try to leave 'it' beside 1st..focus focus and focus
in my Trial...my math~~~~~~~~~..Please..god save me...


This year *p..
I will join wif my frd..
hehee..not much to said =X
until that day who have go will know..
Shoes i think sure i wear what i most like...
XD..support me support me support me..^.^

Kambateh!!...thanks...add oil together kayyss...

(Lazy put new pic..hehe)
Ms J Kambateh..
Mr K Kambateh...
Mr CB Kambateh...
hahaxxx...
Luck coming?..
Dunno..maybe just for awhile..

But...hope until end of my trial^.^
Today..quiet ok...
~~TOUCHED~~
Something happen..
Sweet sweet de..
And..Nuan Nuan de...
TQ...

Next mon trial..
today only i know what subject on Mon..
-.-
So...just wish myself good luck and all the best..
First time trial coming.....
Add Oil..to u^.^
Pray for me until my real PMR exam end up please...
U also.....but i think u can=)

Maybe

Get many Malay frd support about something =X

Huh..
But..what they said..
is it real?..
hope yes =)

What come out from * mouth..
was just a lie?
Why AGAIN...
Our frd told me something...
should i listen/believe on what he had said?
..DUnNO..

Action..
but..feel unwell..
feel u..not really like it..
maybe u ask me to take action..
but equally u hope me don't do it..
Why..something complicated..
Cause of..* is a part of u?..
Or..u.....
Just said out loudly
'What you wan to said?!'








End up?..
complicated...
Nothing to said about that..
I'm upset..I'm transparent..
Bingo..totally true..
I try to away from u..
...u try to away from she/me?...
Trial coming...
Every time...before a big exam or trial..
sure..have many many sad thing happen..
make me can't focus on my exam..Damn....
Hope this time...before trial..
can solve it ALL and let me enter with a happy non-sad mind..
But i know is IMPOSSIBLE..
1hour+ and 3day leave..Is going to trial..
Pray to me please =*+
EVERYTHING GONNA BE ALL RIGHT
tell me if anything u wan to know...
Your one msg or word..
maybe can stop me from take the action maybe TOMORROW..

I super duper LOVE u,Harry...

OMG...
I wan to watch
'Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince'
...I wan I wan I wan...
LOVE he so much..but..
until now still not yet watch it....
>.< 'Sab Sab'.. I wan I wan I wan... >.< I have 1-6 Harry Potter chinese book...



OMG.....
everytime when i was open the book or even watch his past movie....
Sure i will 'WOW...."






Harry Harry Harry Harry Harry Harry Harry Harry Harry Harry Harry Harry
Going the way to crazy^.^






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Today..
A normal day..
And...sometimes laugh like hills>.<
And..taken some pic about food..
maybe upload next time..
THANK YOU to.........

Quit

SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry
sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY
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sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY
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sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY
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sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY
SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry
sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY

Every sorry..
was Every my fault..
and saying sorry to u.....
I know i'm hurting u too...
I know...
but what can i do...
Just..reflection..
make myself hurt.....
let u smile happily...
A candle burn itself..to its lovely.....
So..
I'm the candle..
and u're the lovely one...
sorry..
I dun dare to said out anything...

...Thanks...

I still trying my best..
I don't think i can really..
let go of...
..i can do it i guess....e Maybe....

Something..happen on me..
How touched =*/

They plan for me...
They help me..
They said that..
They won't forget about me..
Cause..last year...
Yes..is true..since last year...
I had tell them..(just as normal talk)
I'm very very hope to join 'it'...

Whole day I'm keep think about this...
Touched....
Yesterday was my cousin sister bday..
Sry...and happy birthday to u...
This is me and my cousin..I'm yuck...is true...
(use c902 make me look more yuckss...)



Daddy bought me a new shirt..
I Love it so much...
Mummy wan to bought for me at 1st..
But she act dun wan or what..
Than i said to Daddy..
I love so much...
Than i try the clothes let he have a look...
He said nice...ask mum...
and mum straight ask daddy buy for me....
Touched again....Thanks..=*/
I think i will wear every time if i wish..
Really...
I feel...except from MAYBE..
I'm still have many people care about me...
...Bao...SuetMun....Mummy...Daddy...Cousin.....

*I don't dare to talk to u too...
I'm scare..I'm hurt...
The problem....I think..
This time...i have leave it to u for...step out...
Not me...i tried 'that day'...
but..i dunno what to said...
and 'that time'..u was cold...
U know....the coldness...could kill me..
or make me pain...So...
I agree...I really DUN DARE...
to touch a cold things that can kill me seriously...
Visit someone blog....Saw that..
u had said...u're very...'fan'..
MAYBE about my this children thinking..
I'm sorry about that....U have problem..
Sure they will support u..or help u..
well done....for ur new life....
Seems...they're important for u...
A good news i think...
with them..u can smile or talk happily...
not as the moment with me...
I'm a person who..won't move...
A very 'Bei Dong' person....
I'm waiting the day.....coming for me...
My character...was a person who keep waiting...
I had take action before.....ur turn now...if u wish to solve...
No wonder where or what happen...
Still the same..
"I'll be right here waiting for u"
"For the promise...For our relationship..."
"I can laugh maybe..but...I'm still not forget about it.."
I AM WAITING...
I'm really really sorry....Please..tell me..what should i do...
And....Please forgive me..
I keep looking at my phone...
I'm Waiting..

我看我放弃吧

I Quit..

quit from ur hand...

Quit totally...

Suffer and suffer...

我

不想再想..

Disturbing ur anything..

was not good...U have ur own life..

U very happy about it..

I saw it...u really..enjoying..

I'm quiet ok saw u happy..

So..I Just QUIT from ur life quietly..

U already promises me u must be happy..

and now..u're going on ur happyness now...

Congratulation....

'She'....i act nothing...

maybe she make u more well..

She so cute and the one who very love u..

add oil...go to her direction...

Begin your new life...

About our frd...i had tell he...

and he agree with me...

He said that...he won't think anyhting about it..

If he does...I will kill he...But i know what he promises me..

he can do it...

(please dun let me feel that the word of 'promise' was unbelieveble)

Everyday..

U moody cause of MINE CHILDREN MIND thinking...

I should let go..I MUST let go....

So...I LET GO...even suffer..but promise...u must be alright...

你过得开开心心我不干涉...

Bye Bye...

Not end...but...the key that unlock my ♥..

was DROP again...on the way we have passed...

Steping by other...playing by other....

LOST....

I can't even find it...

I dun wish to find it too..

Just let it lost...than i no need to unlock ♥

to anyone....I dun trust anyone...

I dun wan to get hurt anymore..

Regret cause of unlock ♥...

I swear..i won't anymore....

给过记忆
足迹..是美的..
我伤心...没有其他能取代...

What had 'she' done to me...

Maybe seen by friend...

But..no comment that friend had gave me..

nvm...
Nothing about it....

U're enjoying....think about her good...

Your action 'just now'..

The meaning i dunno...

throw the 'thing' in front of me might hurt she u know...

Is END...

I dunwan anymore...

I dunwan the stupid mind thinking..

even if i think again...

i will kill myself again..

SUFFER is not good the feeling...

Bye Bye

I use coldness...

To cover my sadness...

I use Smiling face..

To overcome me suffer pain...

I use my blooding hurt..

To protect u...

I use my tears..

To support what had u done...

I use my hand..

To push u away from myside...

I use my leg...

To dissapear in front of u..

I use my eye..

To quit from ur eye line..

This..

is what i call..

to protect myself...

足迹..

Quit hurt..

And very tired..

I have help u all think so much..

for let u2 give each other a chance..

at last..

Just receive the few word by 2..

1-Cin cai la.....

1-We already back as last time..

Din even a word they think that they should said to me..

But,nothing..i already normal as my life...

No one will rmb me...no one will thank to me....

I'm bringing a moody mood to sch..

but in front of my frd..i must act like super happy..

try to close my sadness side with my acting smiley face..

But...saw they..and i wait he out his class...

I'm turning again..not well...than..they dun even talk to me..

left me behind...I'm turning and feel wan to vomit...

they just keep walk and walk..din even notice what happen to me...

so i keep stop and stop...landing the wall and walk through them..

Why....i have nothing to said about that..

cause i said before..I'm transparent for everyone...

At Dataran..just chat wif JH n Yen...

slightly better..they care me and let me lend on them...

The whole day was just normal...

I'm transparent..so..recess also..and..

My lips change in white colour again...

CB saw it..said i going to die..true..I'm dieing..

Heart beat also dieing...another know about it...

but what action he gave just make me dissapointed...

I know i'm truly TRANSPARENT...

BM n GEO still same...teacher keep call my name ask this ask that.....

Something happen between classmate....many people anti the boy too..

In many kind of reason..dun wan to said more...

Just BM chat with Yen..she had tell me more..

and she also know ALL of my thing....my good female friend..

She said that..I treat my frd too important...

She said...at last...i get hurt also...she know my feeling...

she know what i'm thinking..she teach me to dun treat too important..

she ask me just set mind as...'u unhappy ur problem..'

But..I can't even do that..

Cause the treat frd important cell was in my blood...

I can't change it...i hope too...dun cause of a frd...make myself hurt...

Thanks Yen..u have told me more...and she also help me said out bravely...

what i wan to said when..maybe i'm unwell...i hope their notice...

I'm unhappy...i just hope have a ear...she help me 'scold'..

those people...let them know what my mind thinking..thanks..

She view my blog and care about me...really thanks....

While eating in Bistro...

Not feeling well too...turning again...

walk also 'sengek' again...act nothing..

they walking to 99..and suddenly i wan to fall...

too blur that time...no one know except me..

Just lending the wall again...and try to breath....

I'm alone again...Yen go back home...

She leave me...Turning also...

receive classmate Sheng Wai call...

and he said about the problem to me...

thanks for trusting me....

I'm very very disspointed.....but..

who else wish to know?...

Something happen too...skip it..

Chinese teacher ask us to go to the canteen..

give us feeling and wrote a summary about canteen using own feel..

no tittle..just about canteen and own feeling....

My mind...begin few week...

was keep thinking about friend...

and canteen....i have no feel at 1st...

mind keep think about my friend...

Than..wind blow...make me feel...

so cold...the weader was hot...but inner of my part feel

cold...The coldness was make me feel painful...

I hate the feel...I'm alone..I'm transparent...so that i like blue..

and my heart cold also.........

Have a stronger feel about that...

I think...this canteen...give me feel that...

Some of Me...and my frd memory...

Because i din take a breake in recess time..

and i in the canten is just accompany my frd...

Sometimes i eat cause of looking they eating deliciously...

I and my frd different class since form3...

so..the most time we can chat or together is...

IN THE CANTEEN.....there was where some of our memory....

Than..i just wrote...about me,my frd and also the canteen....

A zero marks summary i think.....Just wrote it..

cause teacher said....'YOUR FEEL'...

means that..what i feel now..can wrote down..

I tried many many time...to talk to my frd 1stly...

but at last...what the response he had gave me...It's hurt...

I'm blooding...still get hurt...what the feel...no one know except me...

Form1 recess....i have a signal...

I acting normal and ask he to go home...

But....at last.....................................................................

I'm dissapointed..very very very dissapointed....

why he treat me like that.........

Saw gor.....

我泪了，也累了...

我真的很怕受伤了...

I can't control my tears...

Just only gor saw it....I have lost control...

really lost control...suddenly tears out in front people...

I'm pain...but can u feel that....nvm...u shold be happy.......

Can't type in chinese....Hard to said about that..

there have happen many complicated things.........

Green shit was same as me...

Hurt and pain...but...

he use the false way to solve it...

He smoke....and just now when he open it...

I stop he..but...he still continue his action........

When back to home...help my brother to put medicine on his leg..

cause he is hurt too...he fall down yesterday...

Is pain....he cry also....

How jealous are me....

When he fall....people help he...and me put medicine on it...

But....Who....will put medicine on my blooding hurt....

no one....I'm hurt.......

Pain...

can change a person truly....

Hurt...

can damage a heart devily...

Much to said...

but..no one will help me...

So..i just be silent.....

我不开心...又情绪化了...

你伤了我后，情绪没有稳定过...

有时我笑得很灿烂，有时我伤心在大哭...

不想写了...

写下去，更会伤心...

你过得开开心心我不干涉...

我恨我伤心，为什么会在你生活中消失...

给过的记忆是美的，没有其他能取代...

My 'luck board' started to CHANGE?...(updated)

Something happen today..
stay tune please...
Will update as fast as i can..
Maybe after 9.30pm..
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I LOVE mY LOVELY FRIEND!!

Today...Huh..
SMKPM useless...
Always did many stupid action about it...
Last time check hair...today pocket and bag...=.=''
Bag...i leave at class...
So...I'm save..
pocket...errhh...for sure everyone who have bring hp get catch...
Me too...>.<... At 1st i dunno about that..
cause 1st time at sesi pagi got sportcheck pocket suddenly >.<
Saw teacher holding dunno what plastic or what.. i din notice about that...
Than...OMG..5 Gamma 1st.. TikBing's class..
.i saw teacher open their bag... touch their pocket......
>..<.. Me n Foo..just said... (cause no time to hide edi)
'Die thn die lar...can't hide edi...no one can help..
' Till us..good...Me and Foo... the 1st get caught in our class.. .
At first teacher said i have off(cause mine is touch screen)..
Decided to give back me...
Dunno when..Pn Kamariyah(my cute sc teacher)
Said that... all have bring than MUST rampas..
WT..why this teacher change so suddenly...
So..I and Foo...Fill in the Form...
Hp modal or what..
See

Than..back.. Xiao Jun at thr too..
Hehe...nice skin she have..
Lols...i din think about my hp still look at leng lui=.=
Go suetee class.. What her reaction and KH was same..
maybe cause they're sister and brother=.=''
They said " why u so guai...give the teacher ur hp......"
Than...back to class.. we keep talk about that..
and my handfree=.=' I have to protect it=P
cause i love myB handfree^.^


Teng teng teng teng..(time pass)
(How lame are me...=.='')
Many thing happen.....
Begin to worry about myB..=*(
1st time soo miss myB*my hp name

Recess time..
waiting for someone..
cause another one angrying or what at thr..
complicated....
But..Wait and wait....
than..come out..said..something..
Did u know that...even i'm not feeling well..
But i still in the bad status and waiting for u....
U din even said anything about it...How hurt are me...
How come...i have a frd like this...sry to said about that...
And i din go to canteen ..just go to toilet (abit wanna vomit)
Than back to class do the homework..
I hate the feeling of LONELY / ALONE.....
Cause that time..i ALONE in my class..
nobody in class..no one walk through here..
I hate....I'm alone..
But..i just act like nothing..and do homework...
My mind was think about..........
Errrgghh.....Kill me please...

So took my MC letter and book to Pn Santhi place...
1st out my class...
Ah Bo said Hi to my loudly..
Lols...His frd and many people look at us...=.=''
He P...bad guy are he..
haha...but the 1st we meet also when P play basketball..=P
I'm not feeling well that time...so..
He saw it and accompony me...
He saw my letter...know that i have 'calisimia'..
And he said..
'Wah..u have 'calisimia'...nxt time play basketball..if u pengsan how?...'
than he was smile at there..haha...
Dunno why...after saw he...
Mood better...=P...maybe cause of..
I'm LONELY than suddenly a guy very care about me...
soooooooooo TOUCHED....
Than he accompany me chat..help me take book...
I wan to take back my SIM card..
ask he to help too...than saw Yew Joe..
chat at the 'stage'..of the foyer...
than..MyGod...
Ms Tan saw me..and she know me...
Behind she have some pro people...cham>.<
She said
'Yes...girl~...what u doing here?..wan find who?..bf r?..'
Lols...everytime saw me than bf bf...
Her expression abit like joking=.='
than she took a look at my letter from Ah Bo hand..
She just ask about me...Sooo unbelieveable>.<..
she ask me to take care also......OMG..
Than Pn Santhi come out also..
She saw me at here..
She ask about me too....but the report Friday only i get it...
And ..and..OMG!..
Pn Santhi said SORRY TO ME...
-.-!...She said that day she scole me until like that..
Cause she dunno i have this problem('calisimia').....
She said if she know that day..
she won't scold me until so...cham...>.<
and she ask me MUST have someone beside me
always accompany me....dun ALONE(I wish too i won't alone)
I said i'm penolong..sometime need to help teacher..
so..i must walk around..
she ask me to let to other ppl do or find a people accompany...........
Really.....Wanna cry edii..
How come they all so care about me>.<
THANKS...

Ah Bo accompany me too..
and...saw a form4 boy..I dunno he...
But is Ah Bo's friend..
He wanna take back his handphone too...
I wan to take my sim card..That's the important...
Ah Bo help me enter and ask the people can take back SIM card or not..
Heard that Ah Bo that friend parents come to help he take his hp...
Than..dunno why suddenly have an idea...tell Ah Bo...
He ask his frd to help too....Thanks...
And he will help me take back and find me in class give it to me...
Ahhhhh...MyB...I miss u...
And i going to save u.....wait Mr. Ah Bo's frd....
GEO period..
dunwan to said more..
Shit..sure she hate me..
than sure i get scold and she punish me..
this happen always...or everyweek...
This week...she angry and scold at ONLY me..
Other talking she nothing..i talking she said she wan to slap me..
Shit FARIDAH...if u dare to touch me...U WILL DIE..
super anti-FARIDAH..hmm...maybe i gonna open a group anti she...
sure 90% of my friend support.....
I stand a pose she scold..
I wear like taht she scols..i walk aso she scold my socks..
whole class look at me...she ask me stand up n go behind..
just stand up thn walk la...she scold ALSO....shit rite?
I standing with looking outside..thn read book(ecually is just turning page=P)
Than she keep scold me dun like this like that blablabla...
Than..i really brave and abit wanna 'gek sei' she..
straight in the class...she in front white board there i behind rubbish here..
and Lawan what she said...she have nothing to do with me^.^



TOUCHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AH Bo's frd's parent...Lols...
save myB....
muackss...i love myB..
1st time so miss about myB...Haha...
He help me hold and care...haha..
After school i wait he at Mawar class...
XD...thn he pass to me...
cause in shit GEO period..
he wan to find me..but SHIT FARIDAH dun let..
than..cause of that...I get punish...SHIT she...purposely wan...
So...stand behind there about 20minute i think...
Than....Ah Bo said the teacher suck n lame..XD
He said i cause of he get punish..
thn i so jin gak...ask he 'bayar ganti' of my leg..
cause stand so long..abit tired..XD
he said nxt time belanja me eat Kwan-coffe(dunno how to spell=.=)
Huhhhh!!!!..i like that restaurant...
and he said he saw me b4 once..
than i joking said..'nxt time i go u give disscount r..'
than he really said can o..WAhhh....
he said use his name than canXD..haha...
My reader dun use his name r=P
He will belanja me...yam yam....thinking of it also delicious..
Reach home only know that..
The form4 boy that help me take hp..name wai kit..
and today his birthday too...Lols...know he on his birthday..kkax...
really thanks to he a lo......sms wish he^^
And also..
.......Happy Birthday Wai Kit......

Aquarius LOVE Friend...
Jesmay LOVE Friend...
I super duper LOVE MY FRIEND....
Muackkksss...^.^

*my external harddisk dunno why pc can't read it..pic will be upload soon..huh..tired...
But i'm soooooooooo happy....