M**Dy find me again

I dun hope..
every time...will happen all of this..
Who..save me..no one..
I hate it..
Why..
At SOME moment..
Sure see something..
Something..i dun wish to saw it..
At SOME moment..
Sure happen/meet..
something...I dun hope too..






*we can't change every things..
that happen/happening...
even dun hope about that..
but..we can't control it..
the 'click' was in our luck..
but why...sure I'm the unlucky person..
Always I'm the loser..always me the one tears out..
why me?..why?..I dun understand...
where did i lose?
what was the reason?..
when i begin continuously like this?
Why every time..saw that thing..
sure feel like..sad or D something...

What can i said?..
Just keep it in heart?..
But..a heart can keep how many knife in it?..
If slightly touch..the knife will come out through the surface
than..begin blooding..blooding and blooding...
Why.....Many question in my life...
Many thing happen without reason...
Change suddenly without reason...
I moody-ing without reason..*or should said something complicated

"yes..i am"
(many ppl ask me something same..about something..)
This the only answer...I just said ONCE..
because after this...it might change..
I hope next time i answer when people asking..
my answer will be
'where got..i already have...'
*only people who asked me before know about what I'm saying

Watch
我的回忆不是我的 MV..
Truly..this song..
have many memory and touching my heart..
when I'm 1st liston this song...
It word full of meaning..or maybe should said..
Is suitable for me...
Those memory..really not mine..
I might know this truly...
One day...those memory..
I can sure...it will just bring hurt to me..
Every word they sang...almost..
reminded me many thing about it...


Te--ing again..why..
I really...easily get hurt....
Not cause of who...just..something bring hurt to me...
every time......
how can my form3 life become like this.....
My luck i think...
I'm a LOSER..


8 years to go...*
I still gonna wait for 8 year..
Only....will come out...help me...
Heard some one said..8 year....
In this 8year what will happen?..
Or ...i just wait for 8 year only..something dream come true..
I dun hope in this 8 year..I'm alone..i really dun wish it..
But for now...seems like...true..I will be alone...

Every place...
almost..remind me something..
when those memory happening in which place..
what we doing in those memory..
which happiness during memory happening..
EVERY WHERE..
I saw THE-PAST-MEMORY..
why..in those memory place...
Many sense touching my heart...
Remind me....LAST TIME...something happen at here..
What in the memory....suddenly lost...be far and far away from me..
And..i just keep looking at other...
what their action..is same...as MY-PAST-MEMORY...
For now...something causehestarted have distant with me...
Started away far and far from me...started my lonely and full of sadness road..
I know..i can't stop it..this is life..
But..

If really god wan to take of something on me...
Can that not be my those memory and u?...
It just make me die many many time on it...


In front of people..
I'm a popular person..
Back of people..
I'm just such a loser...


D D D..
what can i do..
i have too many D in my life..
how to throw it?

I said much..
something causehenothing to said..
I hurt more..
Not pain at out...but is inner part..
who know..no one....
receive msg from Yen..
poor..why..always...just girl get hurt...
Something happen on she n...
I really feel tear rollin in eye and very sad about life..
why..why life are so unhappy and unlucky FOR ME?
why treat me like that?

Why..
The main reason is what?
Why..
Always..I'm the loser..
Why..
For u...forever..I'm transparent..
Why..
I so shit so cause i lose?

I know..
not every thing i must win..
But...
why must every time..
I must be THE LOSER....
T----..
Dun wish to write more..
I'm just transparent..