Why 'U'..my dear emo always..come out

After post up blog just now..
Than begin do nothing by sit in front of computer..
See this view that blalblabla...
Huhh..hate myself..
think so much after view a thing..such as
'why he wan X she like this by playing game..
all was look so truly..'
'why he lie me...said play..still on-ing and listen-ing song..'
'why why why why why why many many comeout..
keep ask no one except myself..'
When i said something..
doesn't mean that surfacely..
There have something inside of what i said..
I said i hope u go beside her..
ecually......
Haixxxx.......
I'm a LOSER...
really...everyone get their one..
Me?...no even have one also...
Haixx..
dun hope to said more about it..
MrSH at Kedah can't on...
Need his support>.<
Haixx.....Just have a complicated mood..and feel..
Hate that i can't type in Chinese.......
When u saw my Chinese word b4..
Is copy 1 word-by-1 word paste it..
Is hard....

Now..I'm hearing..
his love song.. again..
'why' come out on my mind..
why she really a very special girl?'a girl like you impossible to find..'(in the song)
why i even have a ppl as how u like she..isn't I'm loser,ugly..yuck?
why u can 'fall for she'...
why u'll remember of she when listen to.......
why u can always said one thing do other..
why u wan to lie me..
why u treat me like that..
why...if u truly like she..Go..Go..Go..
Dun give other even little hope...
but why u din't do like that..
u can't even make a conclusion or dunno who is in ur heart..
why u have such of 'that kind' of attitude.....

It confused me..
Frd told me something..
again..i confuse..
my mind was always believe in he..
than get scold with Frd cause of he think i'm stupid who
keep and keep believing..this is why he keep scold me..
He tell me do not believe in he..
But my mind..sure will give many reason..such as..
"maybe he had something behind can't told us..so must believe he.."
"maybe for he..he think that he is right..but for us..he is wrong..so unfair for he"
Bite me hit me please people...
I truly STupid.....keep think those stUPid thing..
Nothing to said..just unwell in 'here'~
Save me please.....