Raining day bring a tearsing face..

Sorry..
I Failed again..
I really dun hope like this..
but..lost control again of myself..

Sometimes..
see something dun hope to watch it too much..
I hope that I'm blind..
Sometimes..
know somethings too much..
but keep it in the heart day by day...
It may cause death or creak in the heart..

Until one day..
The person...
who keep act blinding saw too many things...
It will cry...
The person...
who keeping something about the person emotion..
or sadness even some secret...
One day...
The person will totally lost control...

Maybe..
I'm saying about myself..
I'm the person who i said...
Had Lost Control..

Today..
I'm not really feel well..
cause of somewhere pain...
And..last nite mood...
was still stick with me..
I can't even breath..
But...think about something..
I think i may go to school...
I can't leave Yen alone..

Yen know my mood..
was bad...and know...
where were i hurt and the feeling of pain..
She was a nice friend for me..
Feel thanks and touched..
when she was helping me...
when she protecting me...
when the moment we sad together cause of..
the same name person...and..
what happen on she or me...
Each other will know other problem...
and try to help other..
Thanks...I like Yen,my dear friend..

She suddenly...
told me something...
She said...
'I never see a girl as strong and tough as u before...
How can u din ever tears in front of me..
and keep continue try you best to solve the problem..
u had face...U din even angry or what about the problem...
But..u more strong and more brave....U're really a great person...'

Dunno why..
Just feel like..
FINALLY...
got a person know..
why am i change or emo so seriously..
or even how pain and the time had i keep..
be strong no cry and continually step more in front of it..

She know my feel..
Maybe cause of..
we have the almost same reason..
and face the almost same name guy..
And...the problem that following by them..

THANKS..
I think..maybe she know how suffer are me..
and said those word..to let me...
unlock my tears..and let it go once seriously..
than..after this...she wan me to..
LET GO of all of that..

She accompany me...
At the same place as the 1st time..
I tears at sch...because of the same person..
and almost same reason..
Truly...have many memory and sense.
come out that time...She keep chat with me..
For slowly change my mind to think those things..
And when we walk through out of form5 student class..
A malay male teacher saw me..
and keep asking me why am i tearsing..
I Just keep silent and walk away...
sorry teacher...

She know..
that..i wan so much..
to see the colour of rainbow.....
She said...
If wan to see..
'U MUST LET GO..'
only...can see a most beautiful rainbow in the world..

My ugly tearsing face seem by many form5..
that was so ugly....I dun wan people to saw my sadness side..
I just wan them to be happy...

After school..
as normal...I'm waiting...
Yen said that...
why must me wait again...
she said...for what...
She keep pull me away form waiting...

But..
who know..
equally..I'm wan to let someone know..
Your friend was at there waiting for u..Mr.J..
If I waiting..he will follow me waiting for u..
So...Yen..
that's why..i can't stop waiting...
Cause i wan someone know..
No matter what happen...
Yous frd..Mr.J...will always by ur side..
You're Not Alone...
Dun think negatively...
No matter how shit u think about me...
I dun care...
The main point is..
U..still have ur best frd..Mr.J..
are always by ur side...
Hate me is true for u..
Just do it...
hate me evily...