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I have open this for 2month,

At first..

I though myself waws new..

Is queit happy..

But,

Emotion..

still in my heart..

sometimes..

Hard to control it too..

So..

Sorry if anything..

Make my friend worry about..

In my heart

Move away....

Take care my dear friend and lovely supporter..

No idea

Not really have any idea..
to update my blog...
But i know my sweet one sure..
waiting my post...
thanks sis~


Just.. feel down and D again..
But i know..around me..
maybe have someone who support me..
but ecually their hurt was painter than me..
I can't always said that I'm down..
I have them..
they hurt but they keep supporting me..
So...as a person who protect by them..
I think..i must...
be more tough and brave than them...
to by their side support them...

Just now..
with Chun Hoe gor gor..
Noted something...is truly....
Know that..I'm the lucky one if compare with he..
But he still can stand up bravely..or even give me support..
How touched is it...
"妹妹怎样啊..don think too much la mui mui ^^...
有些事情..我们真的改变不了的..不管我们怎样去努力..都没有奇迹的.."
Chen Hoe gor have more and more memory with His one...
They have many many sweet memory maybe as go genting..
go beach look at the star...and..that day....
every places every action from Gor's she to Chun How gor...
is bring more hurt for Gor..really...but now..for Gor..
everything is gone...But he still add oil-ing..
He told me too...
"u shud be happy that....你和他没有那么多的回忆.."
"我不是想让你伤心..只是想告诉你..其实你真的很幸运了.."
"努力站起来...虽然你现在觉得这个才是最好的...因为你还没有遇到更好的.."

I'm sorry about that...
cause of...carry out ur sad memory suddenly...
But..u still can face it bravely and tough...
I'm really such a LOSER...
why can just fall down easily...
why always tears for some things...
but not helping people who around me..
to make them smile...
Sorry..I can't smile from my heart truly too..
But..I'll try my best...really...
I dun wan to be a weak person...
I dun wan let HE think that...
I'm just who know how to tears when without he..
I must life to myself...he told me before..

Sweet sister too..
always on cal with me..
and..support me..
teach me many thing..
ask me to cheer...
dun think too much...
and a good conclusion she gave me..
thx...really...thanks..

Something..
I'm sure i will add oil..
but sure have sometimes down also..
forgive me please...

I dun understand..
why..ur one word..can make me down..
make me sad or even make me feel like...
I'm LOSER...
keep lose in front of u...
I tried before what i said..
use coldness to overcome my pain..
i think i done it half...but..
It seems like...Just...
truly very evil for u even me...
Is hurt.....I done it..
but hurt most in myself too..

Sorry..
I'm too sensitive..
I'm too childish...
I'm too selfish..
I'm too weak...
I'm too care/focus in A PERSON..
Maybe..is should change my...
useless attitude..and keep every 'star'..
in my eye...dun let it tears out EASILY agin..
already...3rd/4th time in this year...
tears for the same reason same things...
Almost...4 month i think..
the problem..keep increase and serious...
In this 4 month...
I was just as a body walking without my heart...
Just a cold blood person...Just a useless person...
A friend also...
said something else about me in front of other...
also..hurt me deeply*frdship
I hate my attitude TOO CARE A FRIEND...
TOO PROTECT A FRIEND...
I'll change guys..I will...
next time no more this kind of thing happen again..

Just..

Heavy rain today...
Same as in my heart..
Unknown reason...Just scary and scary..
Make me moody again..

Fine..
Today..
Is not a GOOD DAY for me..
I afraid to school..With the truly meaning is..
I unlike this school..some people..
some places..some moment...
I hope..I can leave here...
I know no one need me..
Nothing gonna change if there have me or din..

Out distance from
normal > close > far > normal > close > far far away....
Don't know when begin..
Argue is normal for us i think..
Maybe cause of her.....and many things..
Also because of a friend...

Our problem begin..
cause of her...cause of mine....cause of Ur's...
But now..i think is because of a friend...

Between he and me...
You always choose he than me..
I know..maybe u saw this..
u'll said that is I ask u to go beside he..
But why.....always..
I'm the alone and at the behind one..
because of a friend...

I'll less talk to u..
cause..u have he...
and i know he unlike me...
so..our distance more far away...
because of a friend...

The person...
u will first sent sms..
and first told the news..
is HE...I always the following...
why?..
because of a friend...

Always...
the friend that can make..
u smile or action without any thinking...
That always with u and also live near to u...
Is a friend...

No much to said...
I know the friend will view my blog..
and sure he reading by angryness...
I have nothing comment about it..
this is my unlucky life..what can i do?..
Just learn to act as normal...
I know the friend will think in his mind..
or scolding when reading my post...
said that I post this for make people focus on me..
..or even more evil he can said...
Or..he will use a simply name...
put at my chat box...and said many things..
or even scold me...I know that he is..

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Ms LKW:
I don't know who is the person that tell u..
the 'form5' at ur blog is me...I don't even view ur blog..
Until now....I just view once when u just open.....
and... so just find out who is it...
I know who done it....
But..as the person is my passed/now frd...
So...i dun think to measure or even said anything about that
person who 'view' at ur blog...
God will know at last who false and who true..
I won't said more about that...
If u still think is me...just continue thinking...
U said before..u know me more than other...
But..if a tiny thing between u and the person who unlike u..
also..u will think that I done this LAME ACTION to u...
I have nothing to said..
BECAUSE, what had said by u before..is just a LIE..
u DUN EVEN know about my attitude....
I'm not the person..I won't feel anything about it..
But just one thing i can tell u..
"YOU'RE CRASHING FRDSHIP BTW U N ME BY UR OWN HAND"
And...It WON'T be as good as last time...
Is just as a memory for our frdship...
continue thinking and tell other person that..
JESMAY SCOLD ME AT BLOG.....
see at last...who will get the punishment..
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People said..
You...suddenly action abnormal..
Is just...to hold on a heart that like u deeply before..
And make the heart continue and continue liking u.....
Today...heard something from u...
and...it keep..repeat repeat in my mind...
' Maybe...I'll have a X later also no one know....'
Can truly prove that...you already have Ur new target...
so...why still wan to hold on a heart that hurt deeply by u before..
and let it continue to always by Ur side..waiting u look at it...
and pushed far away by u when u don't even need it...

U have a target...
Can also prove by...ur message..
Dun hope to said..I don't wan argue after
u/someone of u saw my post now...
cause of..a things that u said as 'small things'...
I agree I'm sensitive...I had been said this word
when the first time i type blog...

Something i think serious...
is just as tiny as a ant in ur eye...
But..something i think is normal...
u'll take it and become our argue topic...
No one false...Is maybe we're not the right 'key'..

YOUR FRIEND..
is going to birthday party...
yea...happy for all of u....
But will u know......
what is the feeling when...
- as a rubbish and throw by someone...
- when everyone one u like them...but they laugh happily without u..
- everyone planning and chatting about that...and u're just be a listener..

~--WHY--~
Maybe I'm not part of them..*for sure I'm not
But why...everyone....is planning...or chatting about that..
And I...just the one who looking their plan happily without me...
The feeling is.....................
sorry for saying about this...
in the blog world...
ONLY
Is the true me..
Blog is my friend...
Blog is about myself..
Blog is about my emotion..
Blog is saving every moment that i had walked by..

'慢慢的把心里的他当回朋友吧...........
我知道这东西很不简单...........不过你也要尝试..........放下他.......'
'就用时间吧...........只要时间到了...........你自然就可以了...........'
'不用想将多的啦.....顺其自然....'
From Nicholas...Thanks...I know...
There are still my other lovely friend..always by my side...
Thanks a lot...But..can i do it?..
He keep ask me to try..I'm trying..

SeongHooi..
sorry for just now..
when u find me to chat..
and..I'm in bad mood..
i try..really try..
next time..won't like this..
I will make u smile~

HynN
'try to stop think that u're moody cause of he...
maybe u'll be more happier....'
Thanks...=*/

Just 'IKUT TAKDIR'....

What happening ecually..

Confused Confused
Confused
Confused Confused
COnfuse

Really Confused me..

Why..Why..Why...
Suddenly..suddenly and suddenly..
On the last time but one month before..
My phone was always on silent..
I wan keep hoping that time..someone else..
find me...But..it doesn't...
Than..
After one month..
The same time...Is....
Different...Maybe should said..
My 'luck' coming...
But is totally suddenly...
until...i feel scare...and unbelievable..
Sorry if someone think that i might think too much..
But,i think is normal for a person who had a same situation as me..
TOO SUDDENLY...
I'm in scare..yes i do.. cause i scare..
when i open my eye...all will become normal as last time again..
I still alone me...The dream will like a bubble...
Just 'pop' and disappear...

I try to find out or even ask clearly..
But...seems like..no one answer me the question that i ask..

When the time i need u..
You're far away from me...
When the time we together...
We always in the wrong moment..

unlike your style when said bye bye to me..
unlike your silent receptor come out at the wrong moment..
unlike your leg that like to run away from me and the question we are facing..

Look at now..every time..
I need u....you are just away...
Why....
The scariness..who will understand..
I was just as a person who waiting the rainbow..
It come out suddenly..But I'll dunno when...
the rainbow will disappear suddenly too..
for sure I don't hope this happen on me...
But...if truly happen...
What can i do?

People are true..
they said..
'Once u have a hurt before...
For the next time...you'll not trust it..
easily as last time u done...'
Sorry..cause..I have that hurt...
Sure..I'll scare about that...
Obviously..I was a tiny person in the world..
I know..maybe I'm lucky from other..
But the scariness still have...


Now..
00.07am..shown at my phone
A tiny person..
still sitting on the chair typing..
And..mind keep think that..
'Should I go for school tomorrow?..'
But sure no one can answer me now...
They are sleeping i think...all smkpm's student...
cause they're prepare for tomorrow face their friend happily..
But...still a tiny person..
are thinking about this..
at first hope to ask someone...
but something happen...so..
what in my mind / what i hope to said..
have been removed...

A Tiny Jesmay Still thinking about that...
How?..
No one will answer it..

是怎样..nothing gonna change my love for u-ing.....

What's the meaning?....
Confused me....
I just started to let go..
But..
Why..
Really confused me...
Should i DEAL for this time AGAIN?..
If lose..
I become more moody & emo than last time..
If win..
Next time...I think i can make many people smile again..

SHOULD I DEAL????!
Like u....yes i do..
Hope with u...yes i do..but is impossible for u i know..
* maybe for u seems like i just saying..
But i swear..this..is the 1st time..i dare...face it..
and answer it truly... BUT..i scare...really scare...

View SH blog just now..
Dun sad please...If not....
Maybe u're going to change my mood again..
Please...find a rainbow for u 1st thn me...
I think that..ur prblem..
was more serious than me...
U also not yet cry..Why should i tears seriously..
I must be like u..tough...*reminded me someone..he told me b4 too
Cheer...
I...wish...tonight...u'll accompany me until i wish..
I dun hope..u don't let me alone again~
One more msg or nudge...I'll always at there..just..dunno how to said with u
NOTHING GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR U..
ecp u wan to quit from here...